The lights will not guide you through, they're deceiving you...

Don't Jump... Don't let memories go of me and you. The world is down there out of view . Please don't jump

Soo... yeah. I have this Tokio Hotel stuck in my head. Love the band. Just discovered a new song by them. Well, it's not exactly 'new'. I just found it while surfing youtube. It's absolutely adorable. I think it's about suicide or something. But the really cute part about the song is the ending. It ends like this:

And if all that can't hold you back
I'll jump for you

Isn't that adorable? Okay... enough of that xD
So, I have to talk about homecoming. And NO, nothing happened (thank god!) If something did happen, it would totally ruin the friendship of me and the Seahorse. And that would suck. Seeing that Seahorse is probably the only friend I can tell everything to without being laughed at. No.. he actually laughs at me, but I feel comfortable telling him things that I don't want others to know.

But, knowing my friends and all... they made me and him dance. It was like AWKWARD... plus it was slow dancing xD And I had my arms around him and his arms were around me... it made me feel weird, but I liked it all the same. You know, I am such a hypocrite. I don't like him or atleast I think I don't like him, but I enjoy the feeling of being near him and talking with him. Is that love? I am not sure. I'll figure it out on my own I guess. Patience is something I fail at. He asked me to dance with him 4 times. They were all slow songs. Then my friends made us hold hands... it was inflicted upon us I couldn't control anything since they threatened to kill us if we let go. So we held hands for like 10 minutes.

And then I left... it was a blur. I said goodbye to him and then to my friends and pretty much tripped (I wore heels) all the way to my car. He didn't call me on the weekend. Which I am not surprised, he usually doesn't call me unless he needs someone to talk to or with.

Oh... and I forgot to mention I wore the necklace he gave me to the dance. =D

The spooks

Ugh... I've got the spooks for homecoming, which is tomorrow by the way. =3 I am excited and yet a tad bit confuzzled. I am not sure what to think about the dance. I mean, it's going to be in a room full of high-schoolers, so everyone knows what going to go on.

But I am more worried about the whole Seahorse thing. I want to be friends and that's it. I just don't know how to tell him and I am afraid it may be too late. Let us hope not though xD

I am really not into the whole 'dating' thing. I like boys as my friends because they can always make me laugh. Always. No matter how I am feeling my friends can make me laugh.

I just hope I have a fun time with all my friends =D
Oh! I am straightening my hair tomorrow and putting a black/white headband on it.

The Ticketeer -->

Life has been a little complicated for me to update the blog. Not much went on through this past week or so.

So, last weekend me and the Cow went shopping for Homecoming dresses at the mall. I really wasn't planning on getting a dress since I had my eye on one that I was going to order online. But we went to Macy's first and Cow made me try on like 50 different dresses. I was only interested in blue dresses (I am weird like that). Then I saw this black and silver dress on a mannequin. I REALLY liked it. When I tried it on, it made me look gothic. The fact is, is that I LOVE the feeling of being gothic and I don't know why. It makes me feel... what's the word I want... superior and makes me feel like myself.

I'll put up a picture of the dress later.

On Tuesday me and Seahorse were walking to go on the bus and he's like "This is a bit lame, but here.." and he gives me this heart-necklace. I was shocked. And a little sad, because know I have to break it to him that I just want to be friends.

I am waiting for the right time to tell him.